The true me if you care to Care !!!

A story by: Shadow

So Today Im starting a kind of new stress Test.I am Going to start Writting to myself as an imaginary PenPal.In hope that I can straight'n out a few things in my life just by talking about it in a sinse.Seeing the things I feel.In the View of talking to another!Laugh if you want its things like this that can become a practiced science!Feel free to comment about my self debates.dont take afence if I dont reply.But I am going to be spending alot of time trying to unlock the doors of my human Shell.Ill let you know How it goes when my experiment is over! DAY ONE; So I wait for something to spark from Nothing. Emotionaly Im hanging on to a tight rope.As the rope slowly ripes through my fleshy fingers. Emotional stabilty is something I dont know to well.Well I am a great person and a friend to hang on to for life.I make it my promise to myself in life.To leave everyone better off haven knowing me.It seems to come back in small chunks of Karma.I feel that Sooner or later I will be payed back for all the good I have done.But everyday I wish it were now.As my smile grows dimmer by the passing dawn.The only suport I feel is my inner Valor telling me one day I will be recagnized for the positive inpact I have on the world around me.One day my smile will be natural again.One day suicied will no longer be a chose.And that one morning Loneliness will be a faded forgotten part of a dream. Today I alone walk by my side.With hands to hold and a heart to love. Day Two; I feel when all your world shuts down around you.That is my greatest reason to not give up. Becouse I am stronger then the putrid thing around me that fold under a little presher,Under minimal stress.In my time since I was a child with noone to turn to I just folded.Bottled everything up and cried and died on an internal note.And that Was my childhood!well this pathetic excuse for my early years set me back so far.Im still not over it still dealing with the unmenchend acts of my dreams of past.But I looked at my creative work as well.Not Painting and pictures no Novells Just fact.fact of the Creative work I have started in people!If i gave up when the world shuts down then I have done nothing!The world will forget me when im gone.As my sliced veins bled I realized.All the lives I have saved and all to come all the people Iv changed.would be lossed if depression won.thats when I Wrapped those wrists and my new Journy begun! No matter what I deal with Hard and worse I must always come out on top. Its not a game anymore in a game you can Lose.Its My destiny to leave this world better off when Iv gone.From living on the streets too living at heart.I may not be remembered in books or in museums for my art.But the richest rememberence is left in others hearts!My mission wont be easy or clear at most points.Its my Will that drives me,and I will change this lifes Course! Yes most people act like im from another planet or something. I am from a far away galaxy!How else was I born with a heart?

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